Breathe in. Hold it. Now -- breathe......out.......slowly.
Good. Didn't that feel good?
I enjoy a good sigh sometimes. It gets the oxygen into one's brain. It kind of slows you down and makes you think.
Things have seemed out of control lately at the Lilypad. Not like completely out of control, but you know. Mildly.
For one thing, there's that whole issue with the Rabbit not getting enough (or any) Willow Balls.
Is it or is it not the saddest
little face you've ever seen?
The other day I was at work, and I was telling a co-worker about my weekend. I told her that I couldn't really even recall what we did. That it just seemed like the weekend flowed by without us even realizing.
Do you know what she said to me? "Well, you do have a few things going on. Emotional things. It makes sense to me that you feel how you feel."
I thought... what? What is she talking about?
But then, I thought back.
For one thing, both the Blisschick and I are still majorly trying to come to terms with the deaths of our two beloved Kitties, Ernie and Jobie. Sure they are at Sparkle Pond in the their Sparkle Suits, but we still miss them like crazy.
Just months prior to Ernie's death, my Grandmother passed away under less than comfortable circumstances. My Grandmother was a Very Important Person to me. She was Important to the development of my Soul. Losing her was so hard, and I didn't know how to deal with it. I'm still pretty clueless.
I thought she would come to me in my dreams. And then she didn't. A couple of years passed. I finally had my first dream of her just a few weeks ago, and that dream dredged up some old feelings I realized I hadn't gotten around to yet.
Stupid feelings!! :)
And then, this summer started off with the deaths of two friends. First Susan; then, Ken.
Now, as I write this, my Grandfather is getting very close to his Sparkle Suit. At age 93, he is tired and finding it difficult to recover from a recent broken hip and resulting hip surgery.
Of course, we also have our share of family drama, home drama, and friend drama to add to this. One thing that I've been dealing with in particular (or trying to) is an issue I didn't even really know I had until recently:
I am EMOTIONALLY REPRESSED! WHAT? Who knew. (Well, the Blisschick knew apparently.)
But, it's totally true.
The point of all of this is to say that I think I feel a little lost right now. A little taxed. A little tired. Like I need a vacation, but not the kind where you leave the house and have to go away from your Mammals.
I guess what I need from you is suggestions. What do you do when you feel this way?
Miss Zoe, of course, knows exactly what to do. But she's not talkin'.
See what I mean?
It's up to You to help me.